Giving Up Would Be Too Easy

IT'S ALL HERE!

2007-02-14T23:35:00.000-06:00

now go buy Nakia's product!
Solo effort from Nakia "Playing The Cards" is honestly effing amazing! Please go to www.Nakia.net and take a gander. I was asked to illustrate the album and poster design all of which was layed out by Nakia himself. I'm excited as shit! I'm truely honered to have been asked to participate in this project. Not only is the album great and it looks...well it looks like this flunky (thanks for the nickname dad) did it....but Nakia is one helluva musician and a sweetheart of a man. If you ever see him out buy him a water (hold the ice) and buy his cd.

We're all...playing the cards.

It'll put hair on your chest.

2007-02-05T23:12:00.000-06:00

When you take life head on...and you believe in yourself...and you make it happen. Nothing is put before you if you couldn't handle it. You only get one life. Make it count.

or if you're a lady it'll get rid of the hairs on ye toes instead of putting hair on your chest...

you get the idea.

nyquil is taking me away...get outta here monday...you have officially been LATER'D!

Randy...

2007-02-04T23:45:00.000-06:00

you can call me that if you like.

It's sunday night and I had a very eventful/beautiful/emotional weekend. This week offers tons of new challenges along with many breaths of fresh air. I just went to HEB to pick up some Nyquil and nasal strips. I have a bit of a cough because I'm sure someone breathed on me last week while I was working and wanted me to caugh. Probably someone at the HEB on Oltorf and Congress. It's ok though, I'll beat this battle of *insert caughing here* Yucks soon enough. Now the Nasal strips you ask? They're to see if I can sleep better. It was brought to my attention that I stop breathing while I sleep. Not cool...kind of scary. My dad sleeps with a mask to force air into his lungs. His sleeping patterns used to scare the hell outta my mom. Now since I was informed of my sleep state, I've realized thats why I typically wake up groggy even after a good nights rest. I become tired throughout the day and wondered "what the hell for". Now it kind of makes sense. So I bought these little strips that has some adhesive on them that I put on my nose and it is to open my air ways. Kind of exciting you know...like...I might not be tired tomorrow!

*sigh*

Holy cow! or MOOSE...some kind of large mammal.

2007-01-18T21:15:00.000-06:00

So it's my understanding (from my bud Greg) that school started today. That answers my question, " Where the fuck did all these cars come from?". Seriously it was gridlock. Unbeknownst to me...when school is back in session at UT, there is a whole "nuther" population count that comes into the city. something like 75 hundred thousand people sounds about right. With all the overpasses closed due to "the child" or "el nino" winter storms the past few days, everyone hit the streets today. I went to the grocers yesterday to pick up popping corn and then to Hollywood Video and was completely shocked. I had never seen a grocers so barron. I walked in HEB and said "there ain't no damn food up in here!". A lady walking past me heard that and said..." Mmmm Hmmm child, it's baaaad up in this mug". I felt I had a connection with her. More so than the matching house shoes we both had on. I cooked the corn on the stove...and it was nothing short of amazing. My sister and I watched "Little Ms. Sunshine". I think it's the 5th time I've seen it. and i surely could watch it again. Here are some pics... enjoy. OR DON'T. PLEASE BE SAFE ON THE ROADS PEOPLE! SERIOUSLY. LIFE IS TOO PRECIOUS...NOT JUST YOURS BUT OTHERS AS WELL. THERE IS NO RUSH THAT FUCKING IMPORTANT...SLOW DOWN AND ENJOY BEING AROUND.

Someone didn't make it. PLEASE BE SAFE PEOPLE

Matching NANNY LOVERS! so cute, i wanted to pinch both their granny asses. but i digress.

Been a while I know...

2007-01-17T15:38:00.000-06:00

We'll I'm comfortably situated here in Austin. Work is great and been spending plenty time meeting new people and learning new things. I've been painting the past few days...which is fantastic! I had been kind of scatterbrained the past few months creatively and now that I have some deadlines to deal with....it's crunch time again.

I saw snow for the first time since 1985...it's pretty...but not "all that". I once thought I wanted to live up north but after this past week...forget it. Summers are hella hot here but I'll deal with it. seriously, it's not important.

more updates to come.

daily?

perhaps.

people...you gotta listen.

2006-10-21T12:43:00.000-05:00

I'm hoooooommmmeeeee! I've been gone for 5 days...working in North Austin now mon-fri. where I'm staying there is no internet connection and I have yet to find a place with free wifi so until that is solved....weekend updates with moi!

workin'

2006-10-14T21:11:00.000-05:00

got a six pack...and nothin to do....

Excerpts... flattery

2006-10-05T23:56:00.000-05:00

Here is some of a recent interview of yours truly conducted via internet from Sam Cleary writer for Visual Guidence zine out of Montreal.

VG- Mr. Walker, how are you?
RW- I'm here, thank you for asking.

VG- First off, where are you from?
RW- I was born in Alabama. The town of Gadsden. Mom packed up her five children and headed for Texas when I was 3 months old. I can't thank her enough.

VG- Was Texas everything she hoped it would be?
RW- I suppose, everything happens for a reason right? She had some family and met my step father (Dad/Reed) shortly after arriving. An angel to her and the best thing to happen to her kids. Couldn't ask for a better man.

VG- That's awesome. Is your family close?
RW- I have some strong ties. I'm really trying to take care of some loose ends.

VG- Was your family supportive of your art while growing up/now?
RW- My mom is hella crafty and was very open to my creativity. She signed me up for art classes when I was 13 or 14 from this dude who thought I was shoplifting in his art store. My brothers and sister are all pretty creative. so yeah.

VG- Were you shoplifting?
RW- Nah man, I was just checking out his shit and he started asking me tons of questions. At first I thought he was just some creep, then he asked me to empty my pockets. I got super scared. I did and he saw I was being honest and I was just extremely introverted. It was a small town art shop...he was just watching over his shit, I can't blame him. who cares.

VG- Some people huh?
RW- I love it when people look for the bad in someone first instead of looking for the good...it gives me a sense of comfort knowing I'm being doubted off the bat. (sarcasm)

VG- It's true.

VG- Have you been showing a lot of work lately?
RW- I have been fortunate to show and some fantastic spots here in San Antonio i.e. FL!GHT gallery, The Long Hall, The Red Room. It's all a basket of good. I am fortunate.

VG- When did you start showing?
RW- 2001 was a great year for me...my good friend DJ Shock got me little show at a goth bar/nightclub. I was stoked and I had like a week to crank out some work. Mr. Brant Bumpers funded my materials. I did all spray paint stencils on foam core. I didn't get to make it to the show due to prior engagement outside of Houston. I called from the road to see how it was going and Shock then tells me everything sold! It wasn't even 11pm yet. That really got the ball rolling. Huge thanks to Brant and Shock for looking out for me. I continued to show there for about 8-9 months occasionally getting involved in group shows up in Austin.

VG- What do you generally work with?
RW- Same story as everyone else man...whatever I can find. Anything with color that will stick to a surface.

VG- What motivates you?
RW- I'm trying really hard to be positive these days...some days it's not so much a struggle. Shit happens and you just got to get over it, thats all. Light at the end of the tunnel or just a pipe dream? Cool weather, fresh fruit, cigarettes/coffee/conversation.

VG- When I think of Texas I think of bulls and cowboys and oil.
RW- We have that here, so you're on the right path.

VG- Is there an artistic community in San Antonio?
RW- Well... there is a definite "art scene" but that ranges from people who paint blue bonnets and battle of the Alamo stuff to the Graf heads bombing the heavens. As far as an underground?

VG- You know, like artist that help each other come up?
RW- Totally! There is people who have "pull" and get others involved. It's the same as anywhere else really. This is a tourist town. We have a river that is 2 ft deep and come from all over the world to drink margaritas and watch the still green water, it goes right through downtown. That and the Alamo. blag! after 28 years of it...i'm done. We have first fridays in the art district and second saturdays. We share crowds.

VG- So do you get much inspiration from your surroundings?
RW- I see more humor than artistic inspiration. I've been told I'm a closet comedian.

VG- Really?
RW- I'm a barrel of laughs Sam, honestly. I'm shocked you can't tell.

VG- In time I'm sure.
RW- Teyots.

VG- What's that? Teyots.
RW- They help with nursing...thats all. Makes me smile these days, say it with a lisp.

VG- Can you give me some influences in your work?
RW- Surely, let me divulge all my secrets.

VG- You don't have to name them all.
RW- word. Aubrey Beardsley, Twist, Rockin' Jelly Bean, Mig Kokinda, Dave Deyoung, Shek, Wendy Kimura, Supher, Robert Pena. Jeremy Fish. The list will go on...

VG- Do you have any pet peeves about artwork?
RW- Like process wise? ummmmm....I can't draw without having freshly clipped fingernails and cleaned. I don't draw on a sheet of paper that I may have drawn on before. My bed has to be made. I need music

VG- What do you listen to while working?
RW- I don't like to think too much, I look for flow and I can't get flow out of slow music. Lately tons of Lightning Bolt and Pink and Brown, Mono, Pelican, Electric Wizard. DOOM metal, Sleep. If I'm a bit more chipper - Gnarls Barkley, Viktor Vaughn, MF DOOM, DANGERMOUSE, Wu. Elephant Beach (thx B.read). Gravy Train, Peaches

VG- Peaches is crazy.
RW- She kicked me in the ear two years ago, I saw her spider. I don't mind.

VG- Big music scene there?
RW- I picked up on music from Skate videos growing up.

VG- Skateboarding?
RW- With a twist of lime. Yeah.

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I'll scan and post the whole thing once printed and I get it in the mail.

Thank you Sam for your interest and all your kind words.
It means a great deal.

still ill.

2006-10-05T14:50:00.000-05:00

i was taught "If you have nothing good to say, don't say anything."

i've been doing that a lot lately.

burden.

To hell and back.

2006-09-23T15:00:00.000-05:00

So I left Wednesday at 12:22pm for Alabama. 15 drive straight through. three tanks of gas, one bag of spicy pork skins, a slim jim and two diet rockstars topped off with a diet mountain dew.

all the photos can be seen here > http://www.flickr.com/photos/inanityscout/sets/72157594296514160/

Went to grandmothers grave...and donated her clothes to the Nursing home. visited with some family and took a couple photos. Got to sit under a beautiful tree for a minute. Had a cigarette and cup of tea while I read my book outside in the near perfect 70 degree weather with no humidity.

Bad things come and go just like good things - Joel.

Oh pity me Garuda...

2006-09-19T22:35:00.000-05:00

back to the blackend roots. the muddy tears...the chair rocking in the wind...the fear...and the faith.

I'll see you in Alabama.

Beware.

2006-09-12T19:53:00.000-05:00

If you are reading this from your employers internet connection...exit now. You may be escorted out of the building without warning. I'm speechless. Completely fucking speechless. Corporate america needs you just as much as they could give a fuck less about you and your family. Is it worth sitting in a cubicle? Is it really worth it? Giving the "numbers"? Do with your life what you will. Stay alive and stay on top. Do good and be positive.

I hope all is well.

sincerely,
Ryan

i should be cleaning and organizing!

2006-09-10T17:00:00.000-05:00

but I digress.
went to the good will...for hunting a good bargain.
at a loss. a bit
went to a new Pho joint...dude was overly happy to have a customer...made me leary like dennis.
ordered the summer rolls without a doubt and they took a while...because dude was making them shits fresh! good.
also bought the Pho Ga! off his chain! wipe up....SHUT UP!! let it roll.
got a call from an angel...made me appreciate the sun.
Yesterday I listened of Thurston Moores solo effort (barrett plug), psychic hearts. reminded me of high school when I really started painting...realized how formulaic (sp?) I've become in my creative process...I'm gonna take time to change that here this evening. i knocked over a pile of stuff on brants desk...i feel like an ass because i haven't picked it up yet. but I will.

my camera is still in the car...uggghhhh stairs.

pics damnit it...i'm opening up to you....

www.flickr.com/photos/inanityscout

i'm dying.

2006-09-08T18:56:00.000-05:00

JUST KIDDING!
but who knows...between tv, cell phones, microwaves, cigarettes and quite possible the best sandwich ever in the world on fat ass day!!!! The Mikey Heartattack. Let me explain the wonders of such a snack...
Wheat bread toasted...check
x large egg fried...in bacon grease!....check
bacon fried firm...no crisp, no crisp....check
longhorn cheese...with garlic and pepper melted...check!

then stack as so
bread
egg
cheese bacon
bread

It may give you a gasket blower so be near the potty...
or it will cease your very existance...and you'll die in the kitchen...MOUTH STUFFED!
or you will pass out in a coma of fatty heaven.
who cares right? I've eaten enough spring rolls this week to allow for some grub.

i've been slackin on ye blog for a minute I know...been mostly over at Flickr. i havent abandoned you entirely. your too good to me, oh blog of mine.

bahbah.

New castle.

2006-08-27T11:11:00.000-05:00

So last night I dream that I'm watching tv and David Hasselhof is up on a 7 meter deck doing back flips and front flips in preparation of a super difficult dive into an out door olympic size pool and he has an assistant who was an asian dude with long hair wearing only blue jeans, well Hasselhof does a flip and bumps into said asian dude and he slips and falls off the deck down into the pool. and I hear the announcer say "at that height, if you don't land in a dive position...your skin will come off. The asian dude looks like Don Nguyen (google image search that name). well he hits the water on his side then he swims hella fast to the wall and gets out. tries to break through a crowd of people and get to the street. he falls on his side...his wife runs to his aid and straddles him...next thing i see his wife rubs his stomach and his skin comes off and she is pulling out his entrails in horror...then she turns into an elephant and eats his bloody insides. then i wake up.
yeah gross.

I know it's been a minute.

2006-08-17T23:46:00.000-05:00

but I'll update soon with wonderful stories and such.

NONE OF THEM WILL INVOLVE BRIDGETTE BECAUSE SHE NEVER HANGS OUT...that much. Plus she has yet to return Little Britain season ONE.
but you can visit her at myspace.
BRIDGETTES PAGE OF LOVE

befriend her...she loves people.

GET OUT OF HIS HEAD SICKO STUFF!

2006-08-07T23:12:00.000-05:00

Brant had some ear issues...I volunteered my pouring expertise!
TAKE THAT BRAIN FLAKE! And my tonsils are swelling...AWESOME! So I resorted to whiskey...because I'm from Greenboe ALABAMA and I don't know no better. And I wanna give a shout out to my girl(le selle one two and ya don't stop)..."what up mah?!". That was also bit of an homage to littleloca who is a "DAMN LIAR!"

Brant is still waiting for Calvin Klein to call.......Model-esque? no?

Black coffee.

2006-08-03T08:51:00.000-05:00

Take it away Henry.

1,2,3 oclock 4 oclock rock

2006-08-03T07:07:00.000-05:00

A little Pho action for supper!

along with some summer rolls.

Weston and his other.

get it on the wall!

RAWR!!!!!!

2006-07-27T19:30:00.000-05:00

YOU WERE NO MATCH FOR ME POLLO LOCO AND CAPTAIN CADO!
YOU'RE DEAD TO ME!

Leave Virginia alone...

2006-07-27T17:22:00.000-05:00

I would love to know who is in Virginia who reads my blog. I used to live there.

chinese, japanese, dirty knees...

2006-07-27T01:22:00.000-05:00

Nathan was pretty oblivious to the effect of his yarmulke and shipping tube....Freud.

my favorite cup since I was little.
favorite beer label.
honey with fried chicken!

booger pickers and mock boners
There is a giant brant growing out of my shoulder!!!!!!!!!!!!

wizards?

2006-07-24T00:09:00.000-05:00

way better than it sounds

2006-07-23T19:22:00.000-05:00

i felt like a baby...till i held a baby...

2006-07-23T02:26:00.000-05:00

sugar never tasted so good,
sugar never tasted so good,
sugar never tasted good to meeeeeeeee, yeah.

In Dreams...

2006-07-22T19:01:00.000-05:00

It's saddurday...a day everyone generally looks forward too. I know I do, I love them. Last night I had 3 pints of Fosters with Selle and Lisa, nothing out of control. I got in at around 230 am. This morning I wake up at 10. HUGE headache! Totally sucks. I blame it on drinking on the old empty stomach. my head is bangin'! like seriously I didn't even want to talk on the phone or even drive down the street for that matter. Jozul called from Mississppi and asked about Black Fever, he said I didn't sound too excited, I felt like a complete jerk face. I apologized and said I just had a killer booboo in the nog nog. So I go run errands and look for yard sales, no luck. I was looking for picture frames because Mr Kramerer sent me a huge package from Kentucky. SO AMAZING.
well I need frames. anyone have any ideas? BIG ONES! Within the package was an art print of this Gigposter for Flatstock...
and one of theseand one of theeeeeeeeeeesssssssssssseeeeeeeee......
You'll have to come over to see the rest. I'm stoked on them.

back to my story...

So I don't find a yardsale in the 400 degree heat so I go get some Pho for lunch. It was awesome and under 5 bucks! I almost choke on it, panic and decide to leave...only because I don't know the Vietnamese sign language for "help! I'm fucking choking on this delicious bowl of soup".
I walk into my apt at 2pm...take 4 tylenol and lay down...only to wake 4 hours later. YEP! my damn sadderday is gone! GONE DADDY GONE!
I had a dream that I was in Santa Monica working at Taco Cabana Headquarters and my desk buddy was Natas Kaupas.
We were the creative team behind taco cabana's ad's. Some chick in the office (who was a lady at the pho diner with a broken leg) kept saying she needed to make him a name tag and repeatedly asked me his name "it's Natas" I'd say..."what?" ...."NATAS" ..."good LORD, what kind of name is that?" ..." I told her it was Luthuanian. "how's it spelled?" "It's SATAN backwards". "she called me a jerk and walked off. So Natas and I were outside and he kept looking into his car
he said he just had it washed and was making sure it was ok...
he opened the drivers side door and showed me the floor mats, they were spinning slowly. HIS CAR HAD ROTATING FLOORBOARDS! they were half circles. the drivers side rotated clockwise and the passenger rotated counterclockwise. and they were spiral red and white . The backseat floorboard was like a red conveyor belt. I got out my camera and he asked if i was filming it..."yes"..."thats fantastic, could you put it on one disc for me? just one disc, not two?" I said sure. Next thing I know I'm showing him pictures of me sitting on an I beam thats like 50 stories high right outside of a building in Manhattan. I had "fro-ish" hair. Then I woke up. made a phone call along with a bag of popcorn. typing this , and now you are current.

RAWR!

snake like tongues and glimmers of hope.

2006-07-20T19:29:00.000-05:00

I got some Prizes on my birthday.

So the other day I said..."hey Brant...let me borrow your purple shirt, I wanna look fly." and he turned and stared at me as I winced at his glare. "I DON'T HAVE A PURPLE SHIRT!" I replied "Yeah you do and I need to borrow it." " I DON'T HAVE A PURPLE SHIRT!" (so it's getting a little tense in the kitchen). "yes uh huh dude, the one for your suit" his reply "Oh that one...Sure bud, no problem" and he walks to go get it and in passing he shoves me into the pantry. pffffft
Juju and I at Chuckie Cheese
So you go to your old haunt to have a brew... and some asshole hates on you and your ride. dicks
Bridgette and Dave

Sell and I

funny how elvis was hooked on pills and we get hooked on anything elvis.

The new tooth brushing gear Brant picked up. The dude is all about it!

Nick sent me a shirt from cali!

Colorado bulldog...mmmmmmmmmmmmm

Linder and I

and I had $1.75..................................................................................................... x 10!

So the designers of Scion really outdid themselves...that yellow paint job really pours it right in.

My moms and dads snack table.

Flaco's new cat Hades.

My neice Rachel is following trends....so cute.

and my nephew Gunnar following Rachel.

ANNIE AND CODY ARE COMING HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MEGA ART TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BE PREPARED!!!! FOR YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

FL!GHT group show...

2006-07-09T13:50:00.000-05:00

this was my illustration i showed... "wishbone, the cat"...I was very fortunate to be able to show at such a nice venue with so many fantastic artists. I would also like to thank Stephanne (sp?) for purchasing my illustration. thank you much kind sir.This is Chris Tracy's feet at the Press party. Africa heat.Mr Parr sans camera...king curator.

This is Sell..me..Bridgette faking it. totally faking it! ohhhh ladies...i tower over you...and it's not the creepers.

Shek One and Wendilicious were in attendence...super good to see these kids!
Weston of Full Blown Aids (bloody fame) looking at me stuff.

SARA WAS THERE TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! totally giving me the skinny...
snacks...don't worry, i only had some cataloupe and blueberries.
Honey Bunny performed.
Juan Carlos was there also!

This is Bridgette's attitude after watching Sarah Silvermann. all hot shit.
it was sooooo hot and all I could do was drink fluids....

NPD as the Phantom in the front seat.
Loaded up in the van to go get snacks!
Brant holding down the table with Slayers.

mmmm Don Pedros

lights out...goodnight.

not falling down...
just falling apart.

xox

Sara Barcus show at The Red Room!

2006-07-07T23:44:00.000-05:00

So after drinking a bit at the graveyard with Brosephs...I hauled ass downtown to catch Sara's show. Brilliant! I like them so much!!! She is hella good. I hope I didn't offend her when I asked how much the "wolfman" painting was. It looks a bit like a wolfman...thats all. Turns out it was a monkey. Regardless the shit was dope. I didn't want to use a flash in the space so pics are a bit iffy of her work...but, you should see her website for more info ( I will post a link......HERE!). It was great seeing her and her fella. Chris Tracy was there also, splendid surprise yeah.
Her mom had sent over some fantastic roses for her show...super nice! Job well done.

it's a drag this city is so fickle and frugal.

I enjoyed it very much.

5 years ago today...

2006-07-07T23:14:00.000-05:00

I made Joe his first pro model. He was a Dagger.

We buried Joe.
His passing was due to an over dose...GHB.
Every year on this day the fellas and I meet at his burial spot...
We talk about the past year...
We share a bottle...
Have a cig for joe...
leave gifts.
I miss him dearly.

Love you bro.Jozul

Joe never had a phone on him but had many calls to make...nor did he ever have a quarter. But he had a pager?

Wiener, The Stain, Me, The Philthyone, The Jock.
Sporty taking a minute.
It was really nice. The humidity was minimal thanks to the wind.
It's always a sad day but one that I really look forward to.
And then there is this. This position is probably 15 years in the making. Sickos!!
this ones for you JOE!
Sporty and I...

time has come today!

2006-07-04T20:57:00.000-05:00

About two years or so ago I was asked to do some preliminary sketches for a nightclub that was going to be built. General ideas of couch/seating/dancefloor/Dj booth. I had never done such a thing so I was extremely excited. Mr. Manuelli (sp?) owner co/founder and now president started this thing. He found the space and he got some to invest...things were gold...then to bronze...quickly to grey then almost black. He was out of the picture for a minute but soon called bullshit and has now taken the reigns. I received a call from him this afternoon and he inq about some artwork for the club. STOKED! I said I'd be there within the hour. IT CAME TO LIFE! Now, I will never take credit for others sweat and labor and ideas but it was very very pleasing to see what this building had become. Mark has the right idea and knowledge on how to do this thing and I have faith in him. It's gorgeous! And I will do my best to make it even more unique. I thank Mark for the opportunity.
It's ill, MAD Ill!

no update yet

2006-07-04T19:00:00.000-05:00

but some shit you aren't going to believe.

what goes around comes around.

white flower in your hand...
red petals in your pocket...
black roses in your casket...
my face missing from your locket.

sooooooo much!

2006-07-02T02:51:00.000-05:00

Moving, settling, weeding out, sorting through.
I have so much to share with you...but will you accept it? that's the question I ask.

...with a thorn in his side.....

tonight. massive updatery.

awe little

2006-06-27T22:16:00.000-05:00

Preparing for july 8 show

yeppers

2006-06-23T14:19:00.000-05:00

and after naps i see this which is completely awesome. Everything is what you make of it. Make everything count.

slight obsession...

2006-06-20T16:39:00.000-05:00

Adrianne Curry... here she is licking the Skoal out of her dudes bottom lip.....dirty girl.

I took a nap today on the hardwood floor of the new apt. Did the back good, no pillow needed. I was listening to Deerhoof. Three quarters done moving into the new pad. I went to the mall today and wasted time. It's hot as hell out and two days ago I found my lucky shoes. Last night I went to the grocery store and bought some snack fixins. Nutella and cashew butter with some wheat bread. AWESOME SNACK! Storms are coming they say. I haven't seen anything. My interest in Adrienne Curry was sparked by the television show "My Fair Brady". Yeah, I watch it. Since the internet/cable dude hooked it up. He came into the apt and saw skull drawings and stuff...a few crosses and he asked if I was one of those "Cool Satanic Artist Guys". Well of course I am...I'm whatever you want me to be when you have my internet in your control. I didn't have cash for a tip but dude totally hit up Broseph Status...why you ask?....because I now have HBO and some other shit I don't need. He will be known as the "Digital Wizard".

NBA FINALS TONIGHT ...
MIAMI IS GONNA DESTROY!
AND I'M GONNA WATCH IT ON ABC...no rabbit ears needed.

apartment

2006-06-17T15:50:00.000-05:00

click on it and let it load, will take probably ten minutes if your on dial up.

In respect of the NBA FINALS!!!!!!

2006-06-14T13:27:00.000-05:00

OH SNAPPPP!!!!!!!!!!
http://video.google.com/googleplayer.swf?docId=-3868751167005642764

your friends better help you.....

Bump into the Damndest of people...

2006-06-12T01:50:00.000-05:00

Sunday night......why am I out?

Linda was there...
And Russell too.

Fresh veggies and a dead hog!

2006-06-11T21:42:00.000-05:00

My fathers beloved garden. Sunday evening generally always look like this.So after a few days of questioning...I finally got some answers... my brothers boss "did in fact" kill a wild boar. He gave it to my brother after he skinned it and broke it up and shit. Gross if you ask me. I told my mom he hit it with his car and just brought it home. Well... I was told they were digging a hole in the ground to cook it like some cave people...but they did no such thing!
I was down to document it...maybe even put some blood on my brothers face for he may have been the victor in the battle between he and baby hog...but instead pops broke out the "Motley Que". I was mildly disgusted...see pic below.I was a bit pissed because there was no ritual behind the cooking of said boar...

Dad tasted it and said it tasted..."wild" that was enough for me...
I got down on some squash, potat's and corn instead. No hog for me please...

good

2006-06-06T22:40:00.000-05:00

the barrio is going to smell sooooooooooooo good!

This is Lance.

2006-06-06T15:06:00.000-05:00

we shared a cubicle wall. From Brooklyn...living in Texas with wifey and kids...
Thanks for trying to make work fun holmes...

BB

2006-06-06T13:22:00.001-05:00

Happy Birthday Dear Friend...you are PANG YOU!

2006-06-04T23:52:00.000-05:00

at nine thirty sunday night we met Dave at an undisclosed location for a round of drinks to celebrate his birthday. David DeYoungblood is now 24 years old.This is dave being a bump on a log...if he would look to his immediate left he would see that Vanessa (sp?) is preparing for 6.6.06 by making devil horns as she fixes her hair... That is stylized satanism right there. or if dave was deaf she would be telling him "i love you".Rose gave some love to youngin'
Veronica guesswho was in effect! see the bird shit on my shirt...class!
Bridgette was there also...she was wearing the latest fasions from Viking, Norway... "Fiercebrant hat".
Her face says it all..."Don't you wish you had one...peasant"Brad was doing some kind of Hypnosis on 'Nessa. it was wierd...and not too effective. but fun nonetheless.
le brantme...i don't believe anything I hear.
Girlfriend 'n' a soda I know...I know.... it's serioouououous.
Bridgette and Ruben

many more ahead of you dave.
cheers brother.

The Light is Nothing without the Dark.

2006-06-04T20:57:00.000-05:00

This was done for the 6.6.06 art show...

Satan!

Accordian songs from the sea...

2006-06-04T11:29:00.000-05:00

HECK YES!

2006-06-03T15:56:00.000-05:00

I woke up at 730...i drove myself to Defensive Driving. It was good...waaaaay better than I had anticipated. It lasted 6 hours but didn't feel it. The instructor...we'll call him D.J. . Thats right people! Doug Jones taught my class...he even got a free umbrella out of it. YEP, a free umbrella from the umbrella salesman. Dude (umbrella fella) was old...not sure how old but I do know he was drafted in 1966, so that should tell you something. He was dressed in a vibrant hawaiian button up with khaki's. Cool dude. He recited a song or should I say "war time hymn" about all the things that would get you kicked out or at least not admitted into the service back in the day. Regardless...he flowed DJ an umbrella. I was truelly hoping he was lying about his occupation but alas... I was duped by my own wishes. Happiness is on the telly right now. I can't wait to watch it...in a moment perhaps once I get my Kool-AID and burrito. I was hella pissed I forgot my camera to document my morning. I mean, come on kids... I went to CLASS! I learned shit and expressed my feelings concerning yield signs. On the way home I bought my bottle of Yellow Tail Shiraz. I will draw and drink and then paint then probably sleep because I'm exciting like that. That is just how I roll these days. Ummmmm I'm hearing the telly right now and Happiness doesn't sound too fucking happy. Kind of not stoked right now. Brant your my bro but why in the hell are you wearing a Hoodie coat, it's hot outside. (brant is the room mate who will fill your days with glee).

Summer...

2006-06-01T17:26:00.000-05:00

Ahhhh yes! FINALLY got a couple days to hang out with my nephew, since I had no where to be and he was out of school we hung out at the movie theatre all day. The dollar theatre of course...first off we saw The Pink PantherIt was my second time seeing it and it was just as funny. Steve Martin is good good good stuff.
From there we saw The Benchwarmers. It was a bucket of laughs as well. Genuine fun. Not too stupid. i guess. Chris liked it and that was all that really mattered.
Then we saw Final Destination 3.
Blood and guts city...

AWESOME...oh and tittays!

The evening was filled with hotdogs and chips and queso for supper and then internet and more movie crap. "oh my gawd, shoes."

this morning Dude was ready to go home so we decided to go starbucks before the drive out to the country.... it was good as usual and on the way to the highway we got an extra treat!!!!!we didn't stop but Chris got some good pics.

ACTION IN THE CITY!

some people were actually running to check the dude out.

coy

2006-06-01T00:30:00.000-05:00

le fish.

DAMN DUDE!!

2006-05-30T20:17:00.000-05:00

Look at all this goodness that came from Pops garden!

awesome!

serious!

It's the little things...

2006-05-29T20:46:00.000-05:00

Saw this on the way to the bus stop this afternoon. On a shitty hot day...this flower was rockin'!

I caught the bus downtown,it's funner than driving.

While I was there a storm blew in...cold air and the smell of rain!
It was good seeing people out and about...but, they were all sweaty...I was hoping no one would accidentally bump into me and get sweat on my shoulder or arm from them.

alas...nothing happened
It hardly rained. but felt awesome.Dude in the orange jacket was crying when i first saw him...when he crossed the street again he was happy and had soda...I've totally felt like that before.

I caught a ride home with le Brant...we stopped at a little Diner called Pig Stands for frenchy fries and free refills of pepsi.
Here you can see ugly skies and shit coming from the north!

Tonight Magnolia is gonna be on the telly...i haven't seen it. Kool-aid is being chilled for the occassion.

later peeps!

"sleep is my lover" - dave deyoung.

2006-05-29T14:06:00.000-05:00

Sunday was great...I woke up around 730 am to call my dad...but I fell back asleep and woke up at 9 and made the call. We met up to do some grocery shopping at our special grocers...it was great! Many many Totino's party pizza's (39cents each) and burritos (27cents each) and plenty fixins to make PHO for the next month! It was super humid outside after the storm the previous night so we didn't hang outside for too long. I made my way back home and worked on some paint stuff. Dave came overand then Brant got home from work. The two of them discussed scaring people and how one fella looks like chicken little.
It was quite the conversation. I learn more and more about people daily. It was amazingly beautiful outside by this time...all the humidity was gone and there was a constant cool breeze. NPD paid a visit with beer in tow.
We watched a couple of episodes from The Twilight Zone...drank the beer and destroyed two bags of spicy Pork skins (that of which nathan would not have any part of). They were gooo ooo ooood. Dave split and NPD, Brant and I loaded up and headed downtown to watch the game...The destination was met to find they were closed. so we walked down the block to an open establishment and waxed poetic on the patio. Seriously awesome. It will be known as the "Brodeo On the Patio". after a few hours we loaded up once again and made it to Taco Bell for taco sunday HAVOC. Once bagged up we made it home to eat our foods on the stoop. NPD left because he was going to go make a stupid amount of money the next day at work leaving Brant and dazed me for the night. I went to bed.

It's just that he's Bipolar.

2006-05-28T15:38:00.000-05:00

Why is everyone Bipolar? I don't understand. It seems like that "diagnosis" is everyones favorite these days. I'm probably out of the loop. I could just be an insensitive asshole. Over the past few months I've noticed more and more people self diagnosing themselves with these serious issues. I for one call Bullshit, Bullshit. I would like to just say this..."WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF EMOTIONS ASSHOLE!" your not special, your not gonna get any "treatment" from me because you can't decide why your happy or of your down in the dumps. Highs and Lows. I'm an emotional wreck. I goo and gah over babies and have been known to tear up while watching Extreme Makeover Home Edition. When I get upset I turn red and mentally shut down...whatever. Thats me and I may and have gone through these things daily. It's not unusual. If you're a lazy ass and don't want to work/be an adult and yell because you're not educated enough because you don't know how to tactfully walk away from a situation and shut your idiot mouth...then your just an idiot. I know many "idiots" I don't say "well he was fine a minute ago when he was smiling until terry told him to sweep the floor then he just wild out on everyone", I don't see that as a medical mood swing of chemical imbalance...that's a lazy fucker who shouldn't be there in the first place. Adios Tony! your out of a fucking job.

I need my meds... I need my meds. yeah, shut me down. I take tylenol for a tooth ache.

But...

if you are in fact Bipolar...I'm sure everyday is a struggle and I hope things get better. You should have a ten minute or maybe even 20 minute "meeting" with someone who "claims" to have this disorder. You can erratically explain to them what its like while ripping off their face...or calmly...whatever you see fit... I trust you.

Get a room people!

2006-05-28T13:53:00.000-05:00

DETERMINATION.

2006-05-27T18:11:00.000-05:00

this is what determination looks like.
my nephew Chris...

I haven't sung an N.W.A. song in days.

2006-05-27T01:01:00.000-05:00

hey neil...i found that disc i emailed you about....phew.
i think on some of the pics, if not all, you can click on it to make it larger.

This is the spread of my show at Flight Gallery at Blue star...sold every painting...STOKED!

Dave emailed me these...from a group show I participated just about two years ago .
skull is 2' x 3.5' on plywood if I'm not mistaken. Knife is 1' x 4' on masonite.
this was for the Eve of Destruction show...plywood 8'x3'This is molly, I don't know when she'll be done...3'x3.5' on plywood

here's an old pic from my studio...old as in like a year ago or so.
This one is currently hanging at the 360 gallery.

Don't worry kids.

2006-05-24T00:26:00.000-05:00

Everything is fine....soon to be told....

Development / Evolution of the south side.

San Antonio Spurs

Plums like the hearts of children.

How I in one night almost got my nose broken by one stripper and how I set her girlfriend on fire. spent a small stack of cash from where it came? no one knows.

Fresh fruit for rotting vegetables.

Motherbitch as a verb?

Marvelous I tell you.

I don't want to be as "grown up" as you. It's not something I have to convince myself of, it's the truth.

Karyn.

2006-05-16T23:12:00.000-05:00

I want bangs over your eyes and holes in your heart.

something must of happened...over manhattan.

2006-05-11T08:44:00.000-05:00

In 2oo5 Morrissey got the living members of the New York Dolls together for a reunion concert. This was documented in a film entitled "The Return of the New York Dolls". It is the saddest film I've seen involving rock and roll. Truely sad.

2006-05-10T11:13:00.000-05:00

An illustration I did of Drew Barrymore.

Slow Dancing...so the needle won't skip.

2006-05-09T23:08:00.000-05:00

this is the living room right now.

les chansons tristes durent plus long. ..like mon amour

33 rpm...
the story I'm writing, keeps me going in circles.
advice I take but never take for granted.
Realizing repetition right as it's just around the corner.
You know everything you have when you "feel" you have nothing...
You forget everything you know when you feel you need more.

I've seen more pride when pockets are empty and stomachs are full.

what goes around comes around ten fold.
Here is my flat mate Brant in the dining room...not much dining takes place but there is pleny spooky ooogliness about.

Brant plays Tom Waits.

2006-05-09T00:58:00.000-05:00

Everyone wants to be happy and no one wants to suffer, but very few people understand the real causes of happiness and suffering. We tend to look for happiness outside ourself, thinking that if we had the right house, the right car, the right job, and the right friends we would be truly happy. We spend almost all our time adjusting the external world, trying to make it conform to our wishes. All our life we have tried to surround ourself with people and things that make us feel comfortable, secure, or stimulated, yet still we have not found pure and lasting happiness.

It is time we sought happiness from a different source. Happiness is a state of mind, so the real source of happiness must lie within the mind, not in external conditions. If our mind is pure and peaceful we shall be happy, regardless of our external circumstances, but if it is impure and unpeaceful we can never be truly happy, no matter how hard we try to change our external conditions. We could change our home or our partner countless times, but until we change our restless, discontented mind we shall never find true happiness.

-Dharma readings.

I've come to terms that yellow is my gold and green is just some far off place. I'm not sure what exactly it is that I'm waiting for but...

It's nice to know I'm not the only one and thank you to the person(persons) who left the four sheets of Plexiglass for me in the foreway of the building. Dave retrieved two of my illustrations from a show we had back in march. There is one more of mine and one of his a loof in the office of a bar downtown. I will see about capturing them myself.

Does anyone remember lennie kirks part in that alien workshop video...it was grey. 1998 or so? yeah, switch, kind of big wheels. awesome.

I tend to forget.

Sunday Morning

2006-05-07T11:14:00.000-05:00

Spurs at Noon.

Dear Valentino Dracula...your gun is ready.

2006-05-06T13:47:00.000-05:00

Happy belated birthday...now go kill some ducks.

for the collection....

2006-05-06T13:34:00.000-05:00

There was a knock at the door on friday morning around ten am. I didn't answer. a few minutes later I crack the door open to look around...and a tube slides down onto my feet. It was the package the mailman stuck between my screen door/front door. My package from the one and only Zach Hobbs has been delivered. I ordered one silkscreened poster from him for my mother (George Jones) and he slipped in a few extras. The generosity of the poster community is unmeasurable. It seriously made my day. I needed that. Thank you Mr. Hobbs. This is my loot! He did this poster for a George Jones concert...unfortunately George fell sick and the show was cancelled. The show that never happened.

He gave me a fucking Smoking Popes poster!
I would kiss him on the face or wash his car or something.

When saints come marching in.

2006-05-04T23:56:00.000-05:00

What the hell is wrong with people?

Seriously? Are you kidding me?
If i have to explain to you what the difference between interest and principle...you shouldn't have a F*%#$*ing loan in the first place. Especially if you've been paying on it every month for the past 8 years. Your an idiot and deserve to live in a box with all your money. I'm sure you'll figure out a lot real quick then.
Or when a person asks you..." Who am i speaking with?" do not respond with dead silence or "huh...what?" especially after the rep says it 5 times..."huh...what" in person means "PUNCH ME IN THE EAR" because that's what I feel like doing to them. Then I have to break out of "professional mode" and into "street mode" and say " Who am I talking to?". They know damn well after calling this place numerous times a week what the god damn drill is....Play along asshole.
you call in ...
put in your number...
verify your S*#t...
make pleasant conversation because you hate talking on the phone also...

mad props to the military...all of them... and no one in particular... some of you cats have got to pull your head out of your @(&#&^. Open your mouth when you talk to someone. Face it...your in the desert probably in Iraq or some god awful place...don't talk to me like your on YO MTV RAPS! Seriously! You are NOT P diddy, or Master P or lil John....you a soldier (not to be confused with a no limit soldier). be proud and act like it. I spoke with a fine fello the other day. He was in his 40's and I called him "Sir" and he called me on it. He asked if i was looking at my computer screen, I said yes sir, he asked if he had a title...it was "commander". I said "yes "commander blah blah". he said..."you need to learn some respect and address a man as he should be addressed." The title of "Fucking Dick" came to mind but decided against it. I said "OK." I finished the call and in closing he said he hoped I improved on my skill in my profession, I answered with "yes SIR!". I wish I had the time to tell him that the car that is going to hit him as he crosses the street isn't going to care what his title is. Dick. I hope death finds you weak commander.

I've reached that point and I'm trying to stay positive. Good night.

2006-05-04T00:44:00.000-05:00

it could be worse....or I could not care at all.

do you have a bottle opener?

2006-05-02T00:18:00.000-05:00

Awe shit. Well a bit of bad news has come my way. The remarkably talented David Deyoung and I were scheduled to have a showcase containing art from the two of us this June. We had advance notice of this by about 5 months...perfect! Many ideas and.....fuck I'm not going to drag this out...it was cancelled because the gallery is moving locations but we will show together at the new place...in say...10 - 12 months from now. We've got a good 20-30 pieces all ready... now they will sit till the sun doesn't shine in feb or maybe march or maybe even april of 2007.

Keep on smilin'.

i'm gonna have another beer, because right now i don't care.
i was really looking forward to this.
shit happens.
grow and grow stronger.

gnite.

ahhhhh....yesh.....yesh yeshhhh.

2006-05-01T00:42:00.000-05:00

on the way...

2006-04-26T23:55:00.000-05:00

the parking lot of the store was hella dirty...it was un-beweave-able. someone was surely being stank!

out in the country I passed a trailer park. it was someones yardsale. click on the pic to enlarge.
please note the vintage flying V guitars on top.

So there is this guy...

2006-04-25T10:15:00.000-05:00

and he'd like to rip your throat out... he's a friend of mine.

.

trips...

2006-04-24T23:08:00.000-05:00

Bridgette y Ben con melon raspa.
Ben con cigarro y Jesus. Arriba.

paying close attention.

2006-04-24T01:24:00.000-05:00

So I'm not even out of bed yet and the phonecalls begin...."Ryan, are you coming over to cook today? What time."
second call
"where are you?"
So I make sure all other plans are secured and I venture out to the property with shrimp and ingredients for crab rangoons.
Rachel is the greatest help ever. she proceeded to fill and wrap the wontons with the goods. I think we probably made about 30. it was gooood. along with 3lbs of shrimp...boiled and chilled.
so good infact it will make you want to slap your granny.After we ate there were motorcross antics in the yard.
Gunnar is teaching me to read better. He tells me to "pay close attention".

Room mate...dear Room mate.

2006-04-24T01:21:00.000-05:00

Where's the peanut butter? I ain't never seen no PEANUT BUTTER!

Maybe your just a bit puffy!

2006-04-24T01:03:00.000-05:00

So Easter rolls around. My mom decorates her table with rabbits and candy and jellybeans and such... here is a shot of Peter.
Blue.

Boxcar Satan has its evening at the good ol Wiggle Room. I good grip of folks showed up...some familiar...some not so. It was nice and warm. I had beer and the best seat in the house next to mi hombre NPD. We came to get down... and we did. They showed Popeye and Superman cartoons till it was showtime. The projector did get a bit warm and decided to skip a bit but nothing to gnar...the show went on...but when it did skip I think you could hear all the teeth in the house clinch. Regardless...I thought the night was a success. If you didn't make it out, then you missed it and it's your own fault. It was free with good folks and good conversations being had...along with the videos mon friar did.In the beginning... There was Brant.

then me on the semi big screen.Here is young Heather (sans towel on her face) and Deathrock Steve.

Then it was off to La Salsas for late night Shenanigans. this young filly popped up out of nowhere. Brant got the digits. Holla atcha boy!

been a minute...i know...but...

2006-04-24T00:40:00.000-05:00

this is where I will start!
one day I made coffee. it was hella good but couldn't drink it all before work, so I snaked my roomies Keg Mug, filled it and off to work I go. Later in the evening Lance sees it and repeated points and laughs...i get my cam out and document is non professional reaction...as so...
I understand that my coffee cup for the day is, well.... "nervous large" but....Lance...don't clown me!And it was coffee with Splenda...not sugar. word.
That evening I decided it is time for a drink. Thanks for hooking it up Kim! you're a doll. That was a enough liquid for one day.So I head home and get into the building unharmed...when I hear "KJFIOICNOIEFNEWFOFEFMIEOWIJ"in my right ear. "What the FUX "I say to myself...
I hear it again in the hallway of my building this time it sucker punches me in my right ear...I think I'm down for the count....I touch my ear and check for blood from my temple because...well i was just attacked! There is no light in the hall and I start swinging...."bzzzidweareeasesesa" it hits me in my forehead! I catch it's punch and throw it to the ground like it's a worthless little b*tch. I knocked him out cold....MOTHER EFFER! I turn on the lights to see who the hell it is.....

STANLEY U SUMBITCH!I call him Stanley... fucking water bug or roach or whatever.....I pull out my Jammy (aka camera) and blind him once before I finish him off. Lights out BITCH!

No One Behind The Wheel.

2006-04-19T01:56:00.000-05:00

Well it's finally done! Mr. Brant "muthaphuckin" Bumpers...my best friend...my bro...my flatmate has finished Boxcar Satan's : No One At The Wheel. A dvd containing a grip of videos (total of 18 songs) along with special features...photo albums by yours truely...performances at the infamous and legendary Tacoland...and an interview with the one and only RAM AYALA. More goodies than you could shake a dirty meat stick at. I think it has been almost two years in the making...but now the wait is over. With distribution through Dogfingers Records...it's gonna be on the shelves before you know it. I'm honored to have just witnessed, let alone be a part of such a fantastic, beautiful peice of documentation. I did these illustrations for Brant to post online, click on them to enlarge. Myspace...pffft.

yeah but, no but, Yeah, but NO.

2006-04-18T14:46:00.000-05:00

I don't need alcohol anymore!

Hermanos.

2006-04-18T11:10:00.000-05:00

Easter Sunday...woke up...went to the compound...swam for a bit...ate some tender meats...came home and loaded up...met up with Danny and Jozul. Decided no to go to the mini ramp but to just shoot at a couple neighborhood spots. For the longest time I had wanted to get photos of Danny and Jozul. Honestly the only time I think I had seen them together on print/video was when Danny blew out his knee in a Transworld video...Jozul quickly ran to his brothers aid. It's been a while since then. D was heading back to L.A. on monday morning so I was lucky I got the chance to spend it with them. Easter is also Jozuls birthday...happy birthday sucka.

This part of a sequence.....i'll show you all later....sooooooooooooooo steep! windsor park mall parking lot. Commit.

Volume 2

2006-04-16T00:44:00.000-05:00

My good friends The Belgraves new album will be out this week. I was asked to help with the cover...very simple....totally done.

Hells Bells.....

2006-04-15T20:35:00.000-05:00

So today Jozul and I go to the rail...it's fourteen stairs...the skaters car broke down so I didn't get any photo's...but I will soon enough. This is a big haulin'!
You can see Jozul at the top...it's LARGE YO! skateboarding is amazing. There is no room for error.
Tomorrow, photos with danny gonzalez

For my eye doctor

2006-04-11T01:07:00.000-05:00

this is for my eye doctor...he is moving...he wants a new sign with old style taste...hopefully he will buy this...and i will have a sign hanging over Broadway downtown. this is just a mock up. It looks like him...he is great, if your eyes hurt...go see him...for sure.

Like a Degenerate Sesame Street.

2006-04-07T19:26:00.000-05:00

I really enjoy hanging out on my stoop. It is great. It has built in seats that can accomodate 2 maybe 3 people at once on each side. It is covered and cars race right in front of you in the middle of the night. I have seen police chases...dragsters...hondas...PRIMER RED CAMARO's with the guy peeling out on the corner 50 feet away. I've seen drug deals happen down the street. My neighbor who says it's "time to make the doughnuts" when he goes to the "rainbow friendly" bar. I've had chairs stolen off of it. It's kind of a weirdo sesame street.
from this.

to this.......

I don't mind.

So I was outside on the stoop the other day talking on the phone when I see this lady in a silver BMW cruise by... I'm thinking..."COUGAR", but sadly I was wrong. This lady had two dogs running after her. she would drive from block to block and at every stop she opened the door to let the dogs in...the dogs would stop...then she'd get back in and drive and the dogs would howl and chase her....she'd stop...they back off. It was as if the dogs were saying....
"mom, hey mom don't leave we want to go too!"
car stops
"who are you lady...i hate you and i'm not getting in your car...weirdo"
car goes
"MOM! where are you going! come back, stop!"
car stops
"i have no idea who you are...why did you stop the car, please keep going..i'm chasing you"
car goes

and repeat...

So finally "Cougar" comes by and says to me "i'll get one, you get the other".

I give her the thumbs up...
She goes to the next block and stops, hops out of her whip and snatches up young pooch like
Cruella. You know that dog was like " &#^)@#* game over! "

by this time old pooch starts running my way and I dive into the grass like this...

landing inches from pup and snatch up the Pooch. he immediately sits and like takes deep breaths like "OK OK YOU GOT ME!"

Cougar drives up and says..." i just wanted to take them to the park!"

pooch was cute...i whipped out my phone to snag a pic before he was taken away to be made into

pelts.

R.I.P. Poochinski Thanks for the memories dog.

$2.59?

2006-04-07T17:40:00.000-05:00

Friday...the day of all days. I get up... eat a banana...check the email...drink my diet Rockstar energy drink because they are hella good first thing in the morning...shower and dress...I'm out the door again. I'm driving down San Pedro and notice my gas gauge... gasp...almost E. That obviously means EXCITEMENT! because I will

a) run out of gas and have to walk to the store and buy a can and fill it and walk back a pray no one flicks a smoke out the window...incinerating me on the side of the road.

b) start to sweat bullets because I procrastinate everything...even getting gas because I don't like lines or having to pull into gas station parking lots, seriously passing 3 or 4 stations till I get to one I had in mind. for no particular reason...they are all the same.

or

c) I will get to cuss (which is my passion) outloud at current gas prices...and continue to excercise my passion while inserting my debit card. only to fill my tank half way.

thank you humidity...for letting my stuff kind of dry.

2006-04-06T01:44:00.000-05:00

24"x24" masonite & acrylic

30"x22" canvas/acrylic/one shot enamel

this little fella above here isn't done. it's being a bit pesky at the moment.

36"x24" canvas/watercolor/tea/one shot enamel

24"x24" canvas/acrylic/one shot enamel

Persistance pays. Thank you Art 360 Gallery.

people in cars...

2006-04-04T00:32:00.000-05:00

Scare the hell outta me...for numerous reasons...

here is two...or threekind of bad decision making skills...

and super good decision making skills!
DON'T LAUGH! The last time you had to push a truck you weren't laughing!
And I was clearly driving too fast to stop and help.
(but i did slow up enough to trail and get my camera out of my pocket, and it's not a hill, just a slight incline)

all this in one day...

new illustrations.

2006-04-02T23:30:00.000-05:00

While at work....I draw stuff. this is my chesire cat.

yeah, india ink, pelikan ink and brush on bristol illustration board...12"x8"...my life in a cubicle.

Suicide Charley.

2006-03-29T16:33:00.001-06:00

So a few months ago I was approached about taking a group photo of a Troop who served in the Korean War. I'll admit...I was nervous.

I got an awesome quote from a friend of mine who works at a local print shop (back in january) to do the printing. There wasn't much to do till the day comes soooooo....... So finally the day comes...I switch my days off of work to make things possible (props to NPD). I wake up at 10 am...stir around...make plans to run out to my parents place to pick up my tripod...I touch base with J. Parr after his Seattle trip and tell him about my plans for the day...he graciously offers his tripod, essentially saving me a trip to the country, AWESOME. So I stop by his home and chat for a minute. I head back to my apt and get online...pay some bills...listen to Elliot Smith nonstop, make a sandwich...(notice how the time flies)...I look at my watch and it's 430! i have to be there taking the photos in one hour...I get up from the desk, shower, shave and shine my shoes, load the car with my gear and i'm on the road by 445. I talk to my mom while in transit...she's worried for me and hopes all goes well. I tell her to chill, everything will be fine...nothing to sweat. I get there...set up...chit chat...nerves....have a shot of whiskey...
SNAP SNAP SNAP!!!!! all the pics are done! and I'm out.

I stop on the way home for some sushi to go and finally settle to watch a television show called Wonder Showzen with Brant. From there I start to edit the photos...i have to pic 2 out of 17. one of the men...and one of their respective wives. I panic and call my friend who works at the printshop 3 or 4 times asking questions about uploading the photos to them at work... they assure me it's fine... sent!

So I wake up and get ready for work...print up some more resume's, print up a sales receipt.
My friend said he would call when he got to work at 10am ....no call at 1010, so i leave in a dash because i said i would have them delivered by 11am. I stop for gas when he calls..."hey Ry, can you ummmmm resend those files?"

HOLY SHIT!!!

I'm almost out of gas...Late... hungry...nervous....now I'm scared. I say sure... so i turn around and haul ass home. get on the computer and the cd burning program won't open!!!!!...I want to throw the laptop through the wall but I stay calm. I call my friend back and clarify some specifics and he says " oh it's cool, that'll work, i'll start printing now". I almost die, it's 1045.
I leave my house again....stop for gas....go get the prints..... and hit 281 towards downtown to deliver them at La Quinta. I get stuck behind an damn Concrete TRUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not religous...but I look up and ask "dude, are you kidding me?" well, Buddha answered and the truck moved out of the way. I get there at 11:10. people are waiting for me in the forum.."The photographers here, THE PHOTOGRAPHER IS HERE!!!!" I rush to the room where everyone is and there they are...waiting for me a total of 61 War Veterans...waiting on ME! I pull out the photos and receive a bit of praise...they really really liked them. Some said it was the best group photo they have ever taken....I was really glad to hear that. PHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!

I establish the order... shake the hands ....get my check and I'm out the door.
It was fun being around them for the short time I had...you could really sense the respect they had for each other...I hope my generation is like that towards each other after 50 more years. We'll just have to see about that one.

Thanks you Suicide Charley's!
MISSION ACCOMPLISHED.

yeah yeah yeah...wake up schlub!

2006-03-26T18:13:00.000-06:00

Uncle me and Gunnar checking out Gigposters. he really likes Seripops work...4 years old with some wild taste...

It starts at 7:30 am. "Uncle Ryan!".....

"what"
"why are you sleeping"
"(sigh)"
"uncle Ryan"
"yeah?"
"you were snoring"

"(sigh)"
Christoph inspecting the new Juxtapoz cover.......

do you have a quarter?

2006-03-24T02:48:00.000-06:00

WURLITZER.

the shit I do...

2006-03-19T02:04:00.000-06:00

Makes me happier than a pig in shit.

MTV get off the AIR!

2006-03-16T09:37:00.000-06:00

I don't care, sometimes! really I don't. If you want to see the best video ever made...click THIS . This is the best music video ever. If you are familiar with Ghost World then you know exactly what I'm talking about. THE ENERGY! I haven't seen anyone with energy in years come to think of it. We are all a bunch of lazy asses. Even the strippers here are lazy. They get on stage...and this is what looks like is going through there heads..." here's my boobies...move my hips...ouch my shoes hurt...look, here is my pooper...and this is my special no no place...move my hips...here's my boobies again"...F@*$#>NG DANCE GIRL...grab the pole for christ's sake, and eat some carbs...I can see your ribs. SO annoying. whatever. enjoy the video.

ps. thanks Ravi for the link!

unclehood.

2006-03-15T11:39:00.000-06:00

Uncle me and Rachel. she's hilarious.

it's 2:29 am

2006-03-15T02:30:00.000-06:00

i just finished some dishes...i'm sitting in the office and i heard a car coming down my street...but it didn't sound like a regular car...it sounded like an air plane 5 inches off the ground. I've never heard anything so loud. Hella early.

is that ryan?

2006-03-09T17:32:00.000-06:00

this is my crap in my car at lunch...

i tunes- ipods- cheetos .

shoooby doo bop!

2006-03-08T16:17:00.000-06:00

Hello all my chillin's and villains..... nothing big as of recent. It is warm today and I consumed some Haagan Daaz Mango ice cream goodness.

it is the NPD'S birthday!

Last weekend I went and saw The Dave Chappelle's block party....it's the best thing since honey on bread!
spy cam watchout!And Nugz got a haircut with some boots trimmed on his feet. straight co-chillin'.

It's not important.

2006-03-03T17:19:00.000-06:00

here and there stuff....
Someone straight up worked this Sonic Menu over. This did not hamper me from ordering a banana (hand motion a la eddie izzard) split and tator tots. I quickly ate then went home and fell asleep.

I wonder what it's like to live in this building? I guess I'll soon enough know! HOLLA!!!!!!!!!

Herwicks has most of my money...art store fun with Me-chelle... Thanks for cutting the paper wrong. it makes finding frames a game...I love those games. This is the tidy little art corner in my room.

Black Flag made some damn good music.

Boxers

2006-03-03T13:26:00.000-06:00

if you haven't done so already...please follow me and read The Bro Report (in my links). I yanked this from him today. He had a write up on Morrissey. Super good.

"Perhaps I'm unique because people are so dull. I'm not very good at being dull."

"I always thought my genitals were the result of some crude practical joke."

"I once bought a Manchester United hat, which I think was 12 shillings, and somebody ran up behind me and pulled it off and just ran ahead. I thought, 'It's a very cruel world, I'm not prepared for this'. And I decided to get my revenge on society."

"It's just the whole point about romance and love songs; people seem to want to make things difficult for themselves. I don't want to sit here for hours and hours talking about W H Auden when we just want to exchange underwear or something."

"Life would be so colourful if only I had a drink problem."

“I lie a lot - it's really useful...”

“Whenever I go past Mcdonalds I get very, very angry. “

“I've never been cruel unnecessarily.”

"I don't feel anti-American, just reasonably intelligent."

God Bless him.
Honestly.

2006-03-02T20:32:00.000-06:00

As of recent my response to many thing has become gradually more and more aggressive. This frightens me. My blood pressure rises, I turn even more red, light headed.

I am practicing ANAPANASATI when I have an episode. It helps me a great deal. Actually it's amazing how quickly it helps. So my suggestion to anyone who feels like they are going to "hulk-out"...take a deep breath and fucking chill before you pass out. - taking my own advise these days is good.

smart smart

2006-03-02T14:40:00.000-06:00

studies show!

Color
Positives
Negatives
Gray
+Elegance, humility, respect, reverence, stability, subtlety, timelessness, wisdom
-nachronism, boredom, decay, decrepitude, dullness, dust, pollution, urban sprawl
Red
+Passion, strength, energy, fire, love, sex, excitement, speed, heat, leadership, masculinity, power
-Danger, fire, gaudiness, blood, war, anger, revolution, radicalism, aggression, stop
Blue
+Seas, skies, peace, unity, harmony, tranquility, calmness, coolness, confidence, water, ice, loyalty, conservatism, dependability, cleanliness, technology, winter
-Depression, coldness, idealism, obscenity, ice, tackiness, winter
Green
+Nature, spring, fertility, youth, environment, wealth, money (US), good luck, vigor, generosity, go, grass
-Aggression, inexperience, envy, misfortune, jealousy, money, illness, greed
Yellow
+Sunlight, joy, happiness, optimism, idealism, wealth (gold), summer, hope, air
-Cowardice, illness (quarantine), hazards, dishonesty, avarice, sissification, weakness
Purple
+Sensuality, spirituality, creativity, wealth, royalty, nobility, ceremony, mystery, wisdom, enlightenment
-Arrogance, flamboyance, gaudiness, mourning, profanity, exaggeration, confusion
Orange
+Buddhism, energy, balance, heat, fire, enthusiasm, flamboyance, playfulness
-Aggression, arrogance, flamboyance, gaudiness, overemotion, warning, danger, fire
White
+Reverence, purity, snow, peace, innocence, cleanliness, simplicity, security, humility, marriage, sterility, winter
-Coldness, sterility, clinicism, surrender, cowardice, fearfulness, winter, unimaginative
Black
+Modernity, power, sophistication, formality, elegance, wealth, mystery, style
-Evil, death, fear, anonymity, anger, sadness, remorse, mourning, unhappiness, mystery
Brown
+Calm, depth, natural organisms, nature, richness, rusticism, stability, tradition
-Anachronism, boorishness, dirt, dullness, filth, heaviness, poverty, roughness